Y4 – Day 220 – Infinite Mind

I sometimes remember to ask the Infinite Mind of my soul and existence to help me write and let the words flow. Unfortunately, the messages that download right onto the page are not internet or public ready. That is, they are so personal and intimate, I could only share them in private, if ever.

In everyone’s life story there is the tale of the hero’s journey. The search always ends up with the answers coming from within, even if the events are external. The struggle or the turmoil and the solution or the conclusion are inside the inner sanctum. What we may see, appears to be playing out on the surface, but it is not about that.

Joy, serenity and happiness replace shame, remorse and repentance when we allow gratitude to fill up the hole, that void within. Replacing – negative tapes inside our heads, the inner critics or ‘the three stooges’ as I call them, the labels we inherited and believe we still need to believe in and carry around, the false identities or masks we wear – with new perceptions and our authentic selves makes us all alchemists, poets and artists.

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Y4 – Day 219 – Manifestation 102

Continuing with yesterday’s post, I want to share with you that back in 2014, I had a desire to host a retreat up in the mountains after restarting yoga at home for my yoga ladies.

I wrote about it from time to time in my journal. I daydreamed about it up in the cabin here and there.

Then, I started feeling like an urge to do it. Call it excitement or a calling. I started writing about it more frequently.

By June of 2016, I had it pretty much visualized. I casually mentioned it in July or August to the yoga class to survey enthusiasm and commitment. I shared my thoughts with BFF after discussing it with my husband and getting his input.

I had little notes everywhere on what to do and what to make food wise and how to coordinate it all. It still had to marinate before I could pick a date. I decided to keep notes on my iPhone on a walk I took a little time later because I lose pieces of paper, I come up with lots of great ideas on a walk and the endorphins released while on the walk make me feel like I can do anything.

And then, we all agreed on an approximate date and time. One of my yoginis, got vacation medical leave and it fit into our time bracket. Once that was settled, I made up a flyer and sent it out.

The minute I got replies, I went to work on fine tuning the details.

I made up an itinerary and a menu. I am a dreamer and a schemer.

I planned, I shopped, I cleaned and I anticipated. I believed it would happen. And if it didn’t or it didn’t look exactly how I expected it to, that was ok, too. I let go. I let it go and went with the flow. I took the next right action and then released it into the winds, literally. Besides, I was too busy having fun to demand any outcomes.

Needless to say, we all enjoyed the experience and I am planning the next one in my head as I type.

Never say Never because you Never know

Y4 – Day 218 – Intentions Kept

Intentions kept are intentions met.

Here is my version of Manifestation 101.

I intend I am stronger at ________.

I intend I am at my optimal _________.

OR

I Intend I am_________.

I intend I _____________.

 

I never realized, as much as I like the beach, that my real beckoning resided in forests and mountains. As I look back over my journals, I wrote about my cabin in the woods for years.  It was one of my happy go to places in my meditations.  And, lo and behold, the right place appeared at the right time, not my expected time, and it looked just like a vision board I had made in early 2011 for New Year’s. We first saw our treehouse on November 3 of the same year. I knew it was the one within a full twenty minutes of experiencing a walk through. Thirteen days later, it was ours. My dream came alive.

So, here’s your challenge. What is it that you want?

  1. Write down that intention: Sticky notes, index cards, notes to self magnetized on the refrigerator, journals and reminders pinned onto your cork board work. Do one or all of them. This is narrowing it down and focusing on it with intention and dedication. It is making it clear to yourself what you want.
  2. Shut the inner critic down. Don’t listen. Continue to believe. Your inner critic is your ego not wanting to deal with any of it. Your ego doesn’t want to fail, experiment or try anything. It likes the status quo. Don’t tell anyone unless you trust them with your insights implicitly and KNOW they will encourage you. Let it roll out of you organically. Keep your intention, dream or belief breathing inside of you. Don’t let anyone, especially yourself, extinguish it or talk you out of it. Stop the naysaying.
  3. Make it exist. Visually create something in the physical to internalize it. I made a vision board. Besides #1, look at it, daily, at least once, perhaps in the morning and evening. You could draw, paint or color a picture, take a photograph and frame it, make a diorama in a shoe box like a kid, it doesn’t matter, as long as it is visually appealing and available. Don’t do it with yearning, do it with knowing, appreciating and being grateful for how beautiful your visual feels. This is your emotional connection.
  4. Meditate on it. Embody it into your soul. To make it palpable, it must come from a true affinity between your heart’s desire and your mind’s dialogue. Ask the Creative Source for guidance.
  5. Work towards it in incremental, teeny, tiny steps. But at the same time, be bold! Do something to give you a taste or reminder of what it would feel like. And then, let it go!!!! For example, I surprised my husband with a weekend up at the mountains which in turn led him to book us a rental up by the lake, which led to a conversation with a real estate agent. That all happened in a matter of months because it was already out there in the universe and it all fell into place.

If you can dream it, believe it and see it then why not share it for the highest good?

If it is in your heart, it is in your reach.

Ok, now I need to take my own advice and work on that book!

 

Y4 – Day 217 – Passions

I love this by Joss Whedon. It is a truly veritable paragraph that grabbed my attention and made me think. What do you think?

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I am highly passionate about almost everything.

My rooms are not hollow, blocked or stagnant.

Passion speaks to my intuition and informs most of my decisions.

It lurks within.

Y4 – Day 216 – Dear HP Journal

I created this for myself and thought you might like to print it out and try it out for yourself. It helps me focus when I am out of focus. Take what works for you and process it and leave the rest for now. It is like mad libs.

 

Dear Goddess, My intention is to _____________________.

I wish I were more _______________.

Then, act as if _____________daily.

Here is my gratitude list:

I am grateful for my ______ and __________ and ________.

I am most grateful for the________, _________, ________, and ___________.

I am ever so grateful for ______.

From now on, the new_______ is _______ and ______ and _____ and does (this)______ for myself.

I have ____________yet I desire ________. I need ________but I want _________.

I like to _________. I am a _______ and a ________. I love _______.

I want to make sure I make time to __________.

I also need to ______ and be ______ plus ______ everyday.

I am the change in my life and I co-create with Goddess to grow and expand my awareness.

 

 

Y4 – Day 215 – Mystery Bulbs

One day, I noticed this stem just appeared and shot right out in the front yard. Oh yeah, I plant bulbs all the time and then forget about them. Spring for summer, summer for fall, fall for winter and winter for spring blooms.

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Six days later, delicate, whispery and pure white, fragrant flowers appeared.

I am one forgetful but lucky gardener. I am grateful I noticed.

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Y4 – Day 213 – Back from Hiatus

So, in the past week, I have been planning, lugging, shopping, packing, unpacking, driving, cooking and cleaning to get prepared for my first annual Fall Mountain Yoga Retreat which I aptly named the Poetry in Motion Retreat.

Sorry for the hiatus but I needed to use every available imagination, organizational and energy cell in my body for the getaway.

Everything went well. It was a small first women’s retreat. Only two yogini women, myself and our mascot, Cindi were there – which was perfect because the treehouse has limited space.

Lots of fun times were shared. We followed the itinerary and the menu I had planned. The weather was cool but not bitter.

I believe we all went home with a new appreciation for vegan fare, the depth and joy in yoga and a renewed sense of self.

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Y4 – Day 212 – Dear Goddess

“My life is a fabulous journey of discovery.” – anon

Dear Goddess (I wrote) –

Help me learn and let it  – the words – the writing – flow freely and succinctly and make sense.

Help me find the time and motivation and wherewithal to organize and keep house and paperwork meticously grouped and classified.

Help me remain interested and work towards our beautiful gardens and landscape.

Help me find time to seek solace, silence and serenity wherever I am.

“I am persistent in reaching my goals.” – anon

P.S. Let me find humor and laugh whole heartedly at myself.

With Love and Gratitude,

Cecilia

Needless to say, Goddess had lots of ways and means to gift me with flaws and faux pas, in the following few days after I wrote this, to openly and publicly display for everyone’s amusement. I think she skipped reading the letter, skimmed to the bottom and just read the postscript.

Just be careful what you ask for.

Y4 – Day 211 – Nothing Changes

“The world we have created is a product of our thinking.
 It cannot be changed without changing our thinking.”
 – Albert Einstein

Nothing changes if nothing changes. When you work on having LESS self righteous ego, you flow into tolerance, compassion, forgiveness and acceptance.

Acceptance does not mean you approve it. It means you wisely know you can only control your responses, attitudes and actions.

Tolerance does not mean you remain silent. It means you respect others have different views, lives and/or customs.

Compassion does not mean you pity anyone as less than. It means you empathize with another’s condition or predicament and hopefully do something towards relieving their pain in a generous, anonymous way.

Forgiveness does not mean you forget. Allowing someone to cross boundaries again means you learned nothing about saving/loving your own self or have gained any wisdom on courage.

How people treat you is their karma; how you react is yours. – Wayne Dyer