Y4 – Day 239 – NOW – How to Get There from Here

Something startled me on Nov. 8th.

In shock, terror and horror, I began to panic and grieve.

I was in genuine disgust and felt absolutely hopeless and so very cynical.

The sky was falling. The apocalypse was surely in full swing.

Then I was angry, frightened. I lashed out on FB.

All I saw was hatred and old white men, young blond women. It was FOX news running on a loop on every channel in my night sweats.

Now, I am in action and solution.

But, it takes what it takes and it is what it is and it needs to look the way it needs to look in order for anyone to process surprise, death, disappointment and even success!

I can’t say that this was a linear procedure. I have been up and down and all around. Nothing worthwhile is easy.

Here is what I found out.

Here are My 10 steps to feeling like I am in the NOW again, and made it out alive!

Feel free to use this next time you are in an emotional quandary or existential jam.

  1. Allow yourself time, whatever it takes. There is no timeline and people who say “get over it already” are probably shallow and intolerant, never mind clueless to your pain.
  2. Do not isolate. Speak to others, argue, commiserate, just allow yourself to get it out.
  3. Write about it and maybe throw away your ranting.
  4. Eventually, open up, don’t close down and in. Be willing to open ever so slightly. Invite the light to shine on your darkness.
  5. Listen. Watch. Listen. Evaluate. Rant some more. Cry.
  6. Know yourself. Come back to center. How am I going to be able to go on? I meditated before, during and after – this helped me get to the miracle part! Have a daily sit down. It is never too late to contemplate your existence and place in this world and beyond.
  7. Ok. Acceptance is key. Now what? Get back to your core values and your life instead about obsessing on the loss.
  8. Find the silver lining, the lesson learned, the new action plan or how you are going to fit in in the new reality without censoring, diminishing, conceding, compromising, conforming, constricting or sacrificing your true spiritual or worldly self. Be clear!!!! This is a turning point – do not skip!!!!!! It’s where we find out what we are made of and who we really want to grow into.
  9. Get into action. Find support. Let what doesn’t belong to you take care of itself and let it go so you can move forward.
  10. That being said, moving forward and through (not around, bypassing it or half way) any major disaster, tragedy or unforeseen circumstance takes courage, willingness and enough humility to:

a) Ask for help.

b) Find a spiritual solution that connects you to your source and…

c) Finally, creating alchemy. Transform into your new, empowered, emboldened, confident self by finding a way to help others, spinning it into fine threaded gold, for all who want to participate in weaving the cloth into an ever evolving tapestry of hope, a wellspring of love, a glorious fabric of joy and a tender hearted look at the world around us.

The fun part is – you are never going to guess what all of this is going to look like or how it will show up. It is never what, when or how we expect it to appear but it always secretly, instantaneously or over time emerging as the best scenario, for the highest good if you have taken the ten steps seriously. I can guarantee this.

Your best self (the one you would be proud to show up at the gates of heaven with) shows up during difficult times with a small investment in introspection which admittedly takes time and substance.

But your worst self “wins” if you rely on your HUGE, self-centered, bigly (yup, that is a word now) victim sized ego.

Y4 – Day 238 – Just Saying…

For me, I cannot watch horror movies. I wish they would stop making and promoting them. I think as a mass idea in our consciousness it contributes to normalizing violence or worse, scary monsters cause anxiety in some people, like me, and apathy in everyone else.

I believe the fascination with zombies and end of the world scenarios is making it come true. Hopefully, not literally, but certainly people walk around like zombies when they cross the street these days, eyes glued to their phones and the heightened terrorism, testing and making of weapons of mass destruction and talk of trigger fingers on a possible nuclear bomb doesn’t hurt my theory.

I believe I the religious might want to become more faith filled instead of fearing others outside their realm. I would like everyone to use more common sense. I get the feeling if we all really looked into our heart of hearts, we’d find a common denominator called love not hate. Call me naive. I still have wonder.

I wish the leaders in this world were less egocentric. Imagine if our own president elect were not greedy, competitive or an attention hog.


Y4 – Day 237 – Word Choices

Possibility vs. Negativity

I get to vs. I have to

I could vs. I should

I must vs. I will

I won’t vs. I can’t

Instead of I have to get to work, say, I get to go to work.

Instead of I should lose 10 pounds, say, I could lose a few pounds and I will.

Instead of I must reach my goal, say, I will reach my goal.

Instead of I can’t change, say, I won’t change (which is closer to the truth).

When you feel you have to, should, must or can’t do something – re think it and substitute I get to, I could, I will or I won’t.

Y4 – Day 233 – Happy Thanksgiving

Hip hip hooray !!! We are alive and together today!! We are tummy full and family abundant!!! We are swarming with pets and love and pretty things!!


So much to be grateful for! So many to have had the privilege to have known! So many to have the honor to have at our table today! In thoughts, for real and in our hearts!

Y4 – Day 232 – Day before Thanks Living

Gifted with the life of a gorgeous female turkey, V saved a sentient being in my name.

Beatrice was spared at an early age from a commercial turkey farm. After an eventful span of caretakers where one woman said Beatrice followed her around like a rescued, grateful dog, warranting and loving attention, she was sent to the Woodstock Farm Sanctuary in upstate N.Y.

Beatrice is an individual – someone like your pet dog or cat, with feelings, a personality and    a beautiful being. She loves to be petted like your furry family. Her affectionate disposition has converted many volunteers to becoming vegan, seeing her as the staff knows well, as a friend, not food.

I am a lucky mama today. I feel so blessed. My two daughters arrived safely and together. We are creating a Thanks Living Holiday in unison!

Y4 – Day 231 – Retort to Adults

Many people right now are livid with the youth. what? Every age has its pros and cons.

Adults who blame millennials for protesting can kiss my butt.

I have learned so much from my adult children (millennials all 3)!

I am not sure some people remember being young any more. We were all passionate, loud and idealistic at one time. I still am.

I can remember wearing a P.O.W. bracelet during the Vietnam war and refusing to take it off for gym and being punished with a lower grade. I remember sirens and hiding under the desk as a six year old for G’s sake.

I find adults who don’t listen to the younger generation, very sad indeed, whether it was back in the 60’s or this week in 2016. After all, they inherit all of our stupid mistakes, not just our genes.

Y4 – Day 230 – blindsided

The way to destroy violence, terror and fear is to transform it. Instead of fighting back or getting defensive, we MUST take higher ground. When bullied, don’t bother to lower your vibrations down to the level of evil, stupidity or negativity.

I had a small exchange with someone today that soon escalated. I needed to stay in peace. I sent them good wishes, they replied with accusations. They leaned in personal when I gave my opinion. Finally, I acquiesced, trying to be lighthearted and trying really hard to put myself in their shoes. Again, I was met with a tirade. I wanted to say, your wonderful candidate won so why are you so angry? Instead, I just let them have the last word which was ironic as hell. “Spread love not hate,” she wrote.