I am finally feeling like myself after covid. I had no idea how much trauma we had all been through with politics and misinformation and a pandemic! Personally, I thought it was right and just to throw up my hands sometimes. Mostly, though, I ranted out loud or internally. My guts felt like they were just scrambled half the time and literally I can see now how my intestines if you could have seen them, were twisted and clogged, occasionally on the verge of bursting out of my skin because I could no longer retain my anger, my despair and my outrage.

Then, I succumbed to depression and loneliness and isolated within my own valley of melancholy.

I let my hair, my weight and my interests go, in style. It was my superficial way of responding in kind to the onslaught of meanness and hopelessness. My smile vanished. Although you would see it on zoom, fake and with extreme effort. I tried so hard to stay positive. I suppressed years of personal trauma and unresolved issues into one presidential race and term that was out to destroy us and has cracked open all the wounds for all of us to see.

STAT we need healing. STAT.

And then, I did some spiritual work. I went deep. Past experiences and into changing my perspective, slowly. I thought I had done this work before but there were new, hidden cuts, stabs and lesions attached to my very soul body. I visited them and then in shock, withdrew. I would step a little closer and then back off. I would process and then deny their existence. The dance of fire and ash and pain. The dark night.

But a survivor fights for their life, a warrior goddess gets through it. Never alone but by myself. No one can do this work for you. Like recovery, you must find the place where you realize you are responsible and no one else, for your metamorphosis. Ultimately, it came down to love, acceptance and compassion, for me. A new level of identity.

And then, I took notice of my outsides for what seemed as if it was the first time. By finding power in the journey through, I expect more of myself now.

No Apology

“Your Body Is Not an Apology” by Sonya Renee Taylor is a profound and essential masterpiece that defies societal norms, challenges ingrained prejudices, and celebrates the revolutionary concept of self-love and body positivity. This book is a rallying cry for a world that has long been burdened by unrealistic beauty standards and damaging perceptions of self-worth.

From the very first page, Taylor’s words radiate with an authenticity that demands attention. Her writing style embraces vulnerability and empowerment. Readers immediately can relate. Taylor unpacks the damaging effects of body shaming, racism, ableism, and other forms of systemic oppression.

The heart of “Your Body Is Not an Apology” lies in its unwavering advocacy for radical self-acceptance. Taylor eloquently argues that our bodies are not objects of shame, but vessels of power, deserving of respect and love. By deconstructing the deeply entrenched belief systems that perpetuate discrimination and self-loathing, she guides readers towards a path of healing and self-discovery.

She warns we must dismantle oppressive systems. She delves into the ways in which various forms of discrimination intersect and create a devastating impact on marginalized individuals. Her inclusive perspective ensures that no one is left behind in the quest for self-liberation.

Throughout the book, Taylor challenges readers to question their own biases, reevaluate societal norms, and actively engage in the work of tearing down harmful ideologies. Her calls to action are both inspiring and practical, offering a roadmap for personal growth and societal change. The exercises, reflections, and journal prompts sprinkled throughout the book encourage readers to embark on a radical journey of self-discovery.

“Your Body Is Not an Apology” is not just a book; it’s a movement, a call to arms, and a beacon of hope for a world in desperate need of radical change. Sonya Renee Taylor’s eloquence, insight, and compassion shine through every page, inviting readers to embrace their bodies, challenge oppressive systems, and become agents of transformation.

In a world that often thrives on division and insecurity, “Your Body Is Not an Apology” emerges as a radiant source of empowerment and liberation. It serves as a testament to the power of self-love, the resilience of the human spirit, and the potential for collective change. This book is an essential addition to any bookshelf, a reminder that our bodies are vessels of strength and our voices instruments of change.

The Imperative Virtues of Honesty, Responsibility, and Fairness in a President

After the last indictment yesterday of 45 – I had to say something – anything – so I wouldn’t feel so frustrated.

The role of a president is one of great responsibility and influence. As the highest office in a nation, a president wields significant power and has the ability to shape the course of a country’s future. In such a position, it is essential that a president embodies qualities of honesty, responsibility, and fairness, rather than exhibiting traits of deception, selfishness, power-hunger, vengeance, or malice. This article explores why these virtues are crucial in a president and how they contribute to a thriving and harmonious society.

  1. Honesty: Honesty is the foundation of trust, and trust is vital for any leader. When a president is honest, they establish an open and transparent relationship with the people they serve. Honest leaders are forthright about their actions, intentions, and challenges they face. They admit mistakes and take responsibility for them, showing humility and a commitment to learning and growing.

In contrast, a dishonest president erodes trust, undermines democracy, and creates an atmosphere of uncertainty. Deception damages relationships between the government and its citizens, causing skepticism and cynicism among the public.

  1. Responsibility: A responsible president understands the weight of their decisions and takes accountability for the consequences of their actions. They prioritize the well-being of the nation and its citizens over personal interests. Responsible leaders listen to the advice of experts, consider diverse perspectives, and make informed and thoughtful choices.

On the other hand, a selfish president places personal gain above the nation’s welfare. Such leaders might use their power for personal enrichment or manipulate their position to serve their own agenda, neglecting the needs of the people they represent.

  1. Fairness: Fairness ensures that a president treats all citizens equitably, regardless of their background, race, gender, or social status. A fair leader seeks to bridge divides and foster inclusivity within society. They work to address systemic inequalities and strive for a just and compassionate society where every individual has equal opportunities to thrive.

A president driven by vengeance or malice can sow discord and division. They might abuse their power to punish perceived enemies or discriminate against certain groups, further fragmenting the nation and hindering progress.


A president holds a position of immense responsibility, shaping the trajectory of a nation and the lives of its people. It is paramount that a president embodies honesty, responsibility, and fairness rather than succumbing to the vices of dishonesty, selfishness, power-hunger, vengeance, or malice.

A leader who embraces these virtues fosters a sense of trust, transparency, and unity within the nation. They become a role model for citizens, inspiring them to act with integrity and compassion. An honest, responsible, and fair president ensures that the government serves the people, upholding democratic values and safeguarding the rights and liberties of all citizens.

As individuals, it is essential to hold our leaders accountable for their actions and demand these virtues in our presidents. By doing so, we can contribute to a stronger and more prosperous society where honesty, responsibility, and fairness prevail, and where our leaders work diligently to build a better future for everyone.


Good Goddess Reads

As I prepared and researched for Goddess Initiation 101, I re-read a few books and discovered some new texts that were of interest.

I resurrected Sierra Bender’s acclaimed Goddess to the Core and found all my flags and highlights still worthy of re-reading, plus. This book was invaluable to me back in 2010 when I was writing the script and sequence for my final. Not only did we hand in a lesson plan with full details but also had to give the lesson to our peers in the class. It was harrowing but exciting too! I added an essential oil blend and picked some Cure music to give it a bit of oomph. I remember practicing and practicing in front of whoever would watch me so I could feel less intimidated and memorize the sequencing and pose instructions.

Of course without The Body is not an Apology by Sonja Renee Taylor, I wouldn’t have found my rage and insulted self nor the deep, radical self love we all deserve and I needed to even think of creating this course online. Invariably, she prompted me to read plenty of books that delve into colonization and ingrained systems that degrade others. This book is even on my audible and we have a small group of women that study it, paragraph by paragraph.

These two books were vital in my structuring and the why of the course; Holding Space by Amanda Dobra Hope – a guide to supporting others while remembering to take care of yourself first and The Book of Ceremony by Sandra Ingerman – Shamanic wisdom for invoking the sacred in everyday life.

If you are interested in knowing more about these great goddess reads, leave a comment below.

Goddess Initiation 101

My course is almost complete. Tomorrow, is week 6 and it has been going well. Via this journey of co-creating with goddess, I have found myself connected to the spiritual side of things quite frequently without deliberately striving. The practice of reaching for higher ground and yet deeper into the heart/love has made me much more intuitive and clearer.

Ironically, spending time in meditation, reading about/creating spiritual circles, creating guided meditations and studying sacred, ancient and divine feminine information has made me more grounded. I feel balanced, loved unconditionally and divine.

I hope my attendees have felt growth and widened their eyes to look beyond and through the invisible, coming home to their senses, authentic selves and the present moment.