I don’t like not liking someone. I feel guilty for not liking. I turn that inward. I misplace it inside of me instead of working it out. I suppress the truth because it is distasteful and I don’t cope well with conflict. I have some sort of loyalty to liking others perhaps because I like to be liked.

I find if I listen to my intuition and ask myself, “Am I coming from a place of fear or misplaced guilt?” or “Am I coming from a place of love, acceptance and protection of self?”

Your feelings are your feelings. It is owning them that takes courage.

Seeking awareness and self-actualization requires a degree of self-nurturing we seldom give to ourselves.

When I think of my theme as a life, I think of worth, self-worth, worthiness and empowering others, cheerleading for them to succeed, be their best and honor their gifts. I think of how I write, paint, plant, study, teach and read about what I seem to need myself.

My soul is learning to breathe, to express itself as the divine working through my human form and existence. I am here to learn how to give back. I am digging deep so I can let go, I am writing as I learn and I share with a generosity of spirit, I am proud of.

Dealing with others, finding compassion and coming from a place of love, not fear, like an alert, on-guard animal, is something we all need to mature into if we had had any sort of trauma along the way. Inside we all have Conflict, the critical voice of Unworthiness and Cowardly rationalizations.The protective shield needs to be chipped away in small, and sometimes blunt, doses. The hidden message challenges prejudice, judgments and previous perceptions.

We get beyond our wounded scars by collecting them from all the scattered recesses of the mind and look at them fearlessly and objectively, even if accompanied by tears and sad grief.  One by one and then there was One, weathered and beat up like a distressed piece of driftwood. To face the giant hole of suffering, located in every soul if you dare search, is the main line of all your reservations to love wholly and completely. From this place, it takes courage to explore the seed of your doubt, worry and fear. After layers and veils of shame, guilt and resentments are lifted, you are left with a red, pumping heart, treasured in a wooden, barreled box.

Being Love, with loving boundaries, stripped of remorse, blame and reproach, we harness our passions, using them wisely. Be a change agent in your brave search for the authentic self, your search for fulfillment and meaning.

I am grateful for the tons of ideas I have; writing, decorating, being creative. But, I look forward to laser focusing on one project today and completing it.

Creative Intelligence, Divine Goddess, or whatever you name the source of Love and existence, is everywhere, in you and around you and always has been. When you admit, and realize this sweet axiom, a sense of grandness perches on your knowing and being. It shows you your time is both infinite, expanded and, microscopic as one, because our soul is born of, thrives and exists in love.

I invite you to re-ignite the simple yet powerful pilot light within you this month. Celebrate Love in every chance meeting, every phase, facet and branch of your story.

I recognize love, happiness, joy and enthusiasm in myself.  I acknowledge the wonder of the Universes and Life.

I honor and protect my divine spirit.