Y4 – Day 140 – Dream Big

One of the best-kept secrets for long-term, sustainable creativity is consistent discipline and sustainable, predictable actions.-Sunni brown

Whatever your vision, appreciate the process.

I remember imagining over and over again what my dream cabin would look and feel like. I had a fire going, I had windows looking out over mountains and snow, I had a shaggy rug in front of the fire, I had low shelves of hundreds of books under the windows and the feeling was warm and toasty, sweet and cozy, soft and dreamy. It was both my romantic getaway and safely tucked away, writing haven.

I wrote about it for years, made a vision board or two using exactly the colors I have now in my treehouse in the woods and magically it all came together in an instant on the day it came up for sale and all the dominoes fell into place without any of my own doing. I knew instantly it was our treehouse. It looked a little different of course but not that far removed from my ideal sanctuary.

“Let this truth go in you as deep as possible: that life is already here, arrived. You are standing on the goal. Don’t ask about the path. – Osho

There are ups and downs during the process of manifestation and there are two things I know, if it is meant to be, it will be and secondly, it never looks like you thought it would or happens when you were hoping it would but it fits perfectly into your scheme of things and timing nonetheless, especially when you look back and connect the dots.

The whole course of engineering your heart’s desire into reality teaches you about staying on track and at the same time letting go. It’s about reflecting on obstacles yet pushing past it to re-evaluate your intention.  It’s about perceiving your failures as benefits and still getting to where you want to go with detours and vistas you had no idea would appear yet are grateful for.

It’s about tapping into the wellsprings of your positive self image, becoming who you are and re-inventing yourself to be the best version of yourself time after time.

The journey takes courage, grit and heart.

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Y4 – Day 101 – Peace 101

I choose peace.

Wonderful sunsets and then twinkly lights.

A level playing field.

Loving to paint, write, act, draw, play an instrument, take photographs, design and whatever else expresses itself creatively in you and you losing all track of time because you are in the flow.

Envisioning and meditating for any length of time, the more the better.

Respecting, Trusting and Being in Love with Someone who returns it.

Springtime.

IMG_1120apple blossoms, I believe, in Arrowhead, yesterday on a walk with Cindi

 

 

Y4 – Day 95 – Unplugged Review

I am sure more will be revealed but I certainly accomplished all my tasks while switching off all technology for one whole day. It wasn’t all that difficult until I remembered I couldn’t look something up on Google or couldn’t check the inane and absolutely huge, big, fat waste of time called, FaceBook.

I didn’t waste hours looking at homes on zillow or decor magazines or sales events at any of the thousands of email promotions I get.

I didn’t watch my taped TV shows or the news or hockey and I entirely missed Ted Cruz’s family on CNN. I could have taped it, but not interested.

I didn’t check the weather, Pinterest, my calendar, fitbit, messages or play solitaire on my phone like I do at least ten times a day.

I didn’t surf nor even wade on the internet. I was completely wireless, smart/dumb (land line) phone and cable free.

Here’s what I did do:

I bathed, meditated and practiced yoga all without spa music which was not as much fun.

I walked Cindi. I fed her and myself. I also had to call her name even though I vowed silence when I needed her attention.

I didn’t leave except to walk because I didn’t want to hold up a sign that said I took a vow of silence. I just nodded and smiled to passerby’s.

I did one load of laundry and folded, put away what was in the dryer plus this one load.

I washed dishes.

I cooked.

I prepped and painted my toes and finger nails.

I painted two small walls in the bathroom and learned a new distressing trick by accident.

I strung working white tiny lights on the mantle.

I read at least for four hours here and there and started to read a new book even though, of course, I didn’t finish any I had started.

I timed my writing using the oven timer and did two of those types of prompts. I started a new notebook just for prompts.

I watched the birds and wrote, and wrote and wrote. I wrote about what I was eating, doing, thinking and planning.

Here’s what I learned:

I waste time because I am obviously just as hooked as any body on being entertained outside myself. I am not special.

I feel guilty about reading and lounging around but not about watching television. Why is that?

The day goes by slower without distractions.

My dog must be bored half the time and that’s why she sleeps so much.

I never want to do this again for this long. Twenty four hours was just way too much and I absolutely hated being disconnected during dinnertime and after when I usually snuggle up with my honey. I almost cracked from about 4:30 pm to seven.

I couldn’t wait to get into bed and read myself to sleep with my new memoir about one woman’s passage and authentic journey from empty nesting to knowing who she is now. Ironically, she fled to her cozy, Cape Cod cottage for a year with just a phone and had a miraculous metamorphosis. I am not sure I can do another 24 hours and she did a year.

Perhaps that is why she is published and a success and I am not. I just don’t have the same quiet desperation she had nor the willingness to be away from it all for long.

Would I do this again?

Absolutely, but with one condition. During the day is fine, but by late afternoon till evening, I need to be plugged in.

I am not cut out for “complete” isolation even if I do enjoy being alone in my sanctuary.

I like to have options, and I embrace, even love and need, technology.

If I ever need to hunker down and have a deadline to write something, this is the only way I will be able to do it.

With of course, the caveat of needing my evenings, ON the grid.

Y4 – Day – 94 – FitBit

Today is the day I am supposedly off the grid and completely unplugged so I thought I would write ahead of time to post this little tidbit about my FitBit.

According to my trendy new bracelet that everyone wears now (although I have different colors and patterned ones), I get about four and one half hours of sleep on an average. Some days more, some less, but I believe it to be true. I lay there for anywhere from seven to eight hours but apparently I only sleep for a little over one half of that time.

What a waste! I mean seriously? I could be writing, cleaning floors, creating recipes and/or taking a walk!!

My fitbit also likes to exaggerate. I couldn’t possibly be walking as many steps it says I take. I would be pin thin. And, does it take into account mountain air is harder to breathe? Does it realize how many stairs people in two story homes/offices take?

I used to use map my walk and that was a great app but I have since deleted it because I get such a charge from seeing how little I sleep and how much I can still move forward.

 

Y4 – Day 93 – Gluten Intolerant?

I have six out of the eight possible symptoms for gluten intolerance. I don’t think I have celiac disease and I haven’t been tested, but for the last few days I have avoided gluten and feel just a tad better, at least no headaches. Here are the 8 signs to look for:

  1. Brain Fog
  2. Unexpected Weight Gain
  3. Dental Problems
  4. Headaches or Migraines
  5. Joint and Muscle Aches
  6. Fatigue and Exhaustion
  7. Skin Problems
  8. Abnormal Immune Function

I have the first six. I will continue avoiding gluten and see if I also get rid of weight, memory/word loss, mouth sores and this tired feeling I experience way too much especially after chomping down on some pizza, pasta, bread, etc….

Plus, I am saying goodbye to sugar again. The first few days make me cranky so I am glad I am alone up here in Arrowhead.

I really need to commit this time.

Y4 – Day 92 – Travel Day

Sheesh, it took me all morning to pack my wares and clothing ensembles. Finally, we were on the road by ten minutes to ten AM and sped up the hill before the rain I knew was predicted, fell.

It took me just as long to unpack or longer and finally, after a walk with Cindi, a smidgen of raindrops started plopping onto our heads. We dashed home in a spry manner and the dog was given a treat and I made myself a splendid salad with sundried tomatoes, artichoke hearts, chopped up cilantro, Kalamata olives and the juice of half a Meyer lemon from our backyard. I used some sundried tomato oil and the olive and artichoke jarred liquor to saturate the butter and spring green lettuces.

By now, I have taken a call from one chickadee and texted with at least three people, one of them, the love of my life.  I emptied out the dishwasher, brought in enough logs and dry twigs and needles for about two to three days, filled the bird feeder, started up a pot of decaf (pumpkin flavor) and I am happily typing away. With no TV on, no music – just the crackle of my well appointed fire and the pitter patter of a true rainfall at present, I write in a calm, focused manner and will lose myself a little later into some reading, in some sort of reclined position with mutt and blankets around me.

Mmmmm, great mug of coffee with almond milk and stevia in my Universal Studios cup the kids got me I presume because it says “Mom’s Day Off” on it. There’s a depiction of Marge Simpson lounging on a low beach chair, sipping an icy drink with a straw with one hand, the other behind her up do blue hair, eyes rolled up like she’s in pure heaven. Thanks, guys, my favorite chalice for a great cuppa java up here.

I am here to vegetate for a week. In anticipation of my possible future attendance at a Zen silent meditation writing retreat in September, I will practice no internet, no phone, no communication with the outside world and here’s the rub – no talking – on Wednesday.

We shall see how that pans out.

I will follow the regulations and schedule as I understand them and I can read my writing out loud and I believe, speak a bit before or after meals ( I need to check that for accuracy) for 10 minutes to other secluded, cloistered guests, which in my case is Cindi, our dog.

I might have to wear duct tape and I seriously wonder if I am allowed to at least hum? Again, I need to check that before Wednesday.

I figure a trial run is worth the effort before I commit to five whole days of silence and being unplugged and off the grid. I will pre write Wednesday’s post and schedule it to run on the right day. I gave my husband the next door neighbor’s number just in case. And, thankfully, I can tape any shows I don’t want to miss.

The sheer preparation for complete quiet is making me anxious and it says a lot about how hooked I am to the very technology I fought off for years.

 

Y4 – Day 34 – Mountain Vignette

I love the look of rustic with modern or traditional with rugged textures, industrial chic mixed in with classic curves, or retro farmhouse with contemporary slick colors. It is curious what will catch your eye and how we all feel differently about beauty. It is unique to bring yourself into your environment. I especially felt validated when I saw the frames inside the frames on the raw hewed wooden vertical log siding. I had wanted to use bare frames of different sizes and colors on a partial wall and I am even more determined to accomplish that. Notice the cute galvanized bucket hanging from the back handlebars of this two seater. The ironwork is painted a pure white and contrasts starkly like snow against the natural, dark wooded cabin.

IMG_0690At the same cute spot filled with themed, 1910-1920 style cabins among landscaped vignettes up in Skyforest, (wherein we ate scrumptious pizza at Lou and Eddie’s), I saw this sign outside on the patio and had to share it. C’mon, it is hysterical!!

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Y4 – Day 29 – Another Valentine

Surprise! Another Valentine Gift was in store for me in Arrowhead!

This beautiful piece of art is a one of a kind oil on canvas by a local mountain artist. The photo does not do the work justice. In person, it comes alive with texture and light. We hung it over our bed and it deserves center stage.

What could be more comforting than a warm, cozy, lit up cabin with wood smoke from its chimney during a snow fall amongst white birches and boulders? I imagine books and serenity beyond the amber windows or bustling food preparation or just pleasant conversation, lounging in front of the fireplace. Whatever the scenario, I smell and taste hot chocolate and the home vibrates with contentedness.

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