Y4 – Day 196 – Craft

A mind that is stretched by a new experience can never go back to its old dimensions. – Oliver Wendell Holmes Jr.

Sometimes just by omitting or changing the color of the same form, the scene pops or soothes with ease or freshness. All roads lead inward and traveling on a path others may not take can lead to some of the biggest discoveries and inventions. Exploring outside the literal box is freedom. Making space and creating time for these endeavors are spiritual food.

M is always finding solution beyond the norm. He hung up the bamboo shades on our balcony that resolved the sun and privacy issue without impeding the view. I had never thought of that. It seems so simple after the fact.

There is brilliance in expanding. There is insight in openness. We must cultivate, invite and develop willingness in order to create with authentic flair.

We are each a unique kaleidoscope that sees life through its own prisms. One needs to pursue the calling and stay a dreamer, all in the same breath.

CRAFT – Creating Real Art For Timelessness

Sometimes we stare so long at a door that is closing that we see too late the one that is open. – Alexander Graham Bell

Y4 – Day 195 – The Power of Wonder

Wonder is Wisdom – Socrates

My pen feels smooth, effortless with deep and bold color. Cindi and I repose alongside each other. The treehouse is quiet inside but I hear wind chimes on the balcony. She is my precious, adorable therapy dog. I wonder how we got so lucky. Two souls meet in the ether and know they belong together. That’s how it was for us.

My daughter comes to visit and is in town. We make plans for the Norton Simon Museum in Pasadena. I have never been. The day before and unbeknownst to me, M takes a roll of film he found in his car out of nowhere and gets it developed. It’s a series of photographs my daughter shot when she went to the same exact museum with her Art History class in High School. Coinquidink? I think not. I wonder how we don’t connect the dots more often? I wonder what else am I missing because I am too worried, too caught up in the daily grind or too blind to see?

“There is only one cause of unhappiness;
the false beliefs you have in your head,
beliefs so widespread, so commonly held,
that it never occurs to you to question them.”
Anthony de Mello

I often imagine myself in Oregon or some other colder, greener, gloomier state. I wonder how different life would have been if we had settled there back in 1993. I wonder why I love it when the weather is dark and grey. Why do I love the soft drizzle of raindrops?

You know there’s power in wondering, pondering, contemplation, right?

If I didn’t wonder I would miss the power in all of these details that make a life wonderful.

You gotta have a dream.
If you don’t have a dream,
how you gonna make a dream come true?
Oscar Hammerstein II

Y4 – Day 194 – Worming my Way Through

A box arrived the other day. I had to sign for it.

I held on to Cindi’s collar because she was barking at the delivery man as if she was a big, trained K – 9 German Shepard who just broke a murder mystery by barking at the criminal. She seriously thinks she is larger and meaner than she is. Too bad all you have to do is hand her a treat and any felon would walk right in the front door.

The package laid around for a few days. I was building up my courage to open it. I wrote it on my things to do today list I place on my kitchen peninsula for five days. I would check in with myself for any inkling of bravado every time I stopped by the kitchen to read my agenda and cross things off.

And then yesterday afternoon, I found some time and lots of hutzpah. I announced to my husband I finally decided to pull the trigger and open it.

Four days prior, I had looked up directions. I was convinced I could not do this without lots of support. M asked if he could help, “I do this all the time.”

“No.” I answered. “I’ll figure it out.” I presumed. “I’ll get frustrated and it won’t be good.” Knowing how controlling, territorial and stubborn I am. Just like Cindi. I swear she is me, in dog form.

Besides, whenever we try to follow directions, build items with parts and instructions or learn how to use a new tech gadget, it turns into a disaster. Someone’s feelings always get hurt.

No. I knew this was something I had to do in seclusion.

I found a razor and opened up the parcel. I pulled out the wrapped gift and peeled the plastic off. I slit the transparent tape with my blade. I lifted the lid carefully.

I reread the instructions I had printed out. I dreaded ruining the whole transaction. I plugged it in. It asked for a username and my password.

Two and a half hours later, all of my information was simply transferred from my first device. It practically did it all itself.

And now, I am typing on a brand new, enhanced speed, super charged, boosted laptop. I didn’t lose a single email. I installed Word 2016 by myself, tonight.

Welcome to my world, Cecilia’s MacBookPro 2 with bumped up processor and capacity!

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Y4 – Day 191 – Suggest

I have suggestions for aspiring writers I need to follow myself.

Like commitment to a schedule every day. Maybe a word, page or time limit. I could squeeze in two hours everyday. I could have a one page or 250 word count. Maybe ten minute prompts to warm me up for the120 minutes of uninterrupted, non-distracted appointment I just made with my creative, disciplined self.

Perhaps a ritual before attempting to put pen to paper or fingers to keyboard. Burn incense, utter a mantra, pray for ideas, take a 5 minute brisk walk or all of the above are just a few suggestions.

You know suggestions are just a gentle form of commands, right? Listen to self.

 

Y4 – Day 189 – Five Steps on How to Learn Anything

I lack discipline, that’s for sure. I am more of a passionate all day writer, painter, gardener, cook in spurts like a sprinter. But one thing is for sure, I know how to study, research and read everything there is about a subject. Learning it – is another thing.

There are five steps on how to learn anything.

  1. Immersion
  2. Guidance
  3. Practice
  4. Experience
  5. Teach it

And then when you learn and know more about what you teach, you can write a story about what you know.

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Y4 – Day 188 – Balance Poem

Sometimes you just have to think, write or do something outside the box, far from your normal or comfortable bubble.

Find your hum, your equilibrium between rata – ta – ta-tat and zzzzzzzz.

Balance

Motion inside, activity between

The breathing room is created.

Routines held, agendas kept

The space and air is designed.

Noise and commotion,

Quiet and ease,

Yin finds Yang

Fire meets water.

The female raises the male,

Up elevates down,

Earth touches the sky

While east voyages west.

North above the south,

Hot calming the cold,

Left touches the right.

The heart lies in the center,

It’s a fulcrum, the middle ground.

The soul searches for home,

Radiating, entering,

Shining, inhaling

Energy, in and out.

The pulse seeks balance.

Symmetry causes peace.

Moderation brings bliss.

Life is measured in silence

Rising, flowing, continuing,

Till the final, the ultimate, the infinite,

Meditative and still repose.

Y4 – Day 186 – Our California Pepper Tree

From the vantage point of our soon to be sixty-year-old California pepper tree, almost at the farthest point in our backyard, I sit under its shade and what I see, feel and hear captures my heart.

I feel the breeze whisk by. It makes the long, thin, weeping branches holding pink berry clusters sway and rustle as if they were beaded curtains swinging and swishing at the secret opening of an opium den in the exotic Far East of a James Hilton novel. The grass and weeds lean and bend at my feet and beyond, leading right up to the graphite colored edge of the slated patio.

I listen to the symphonic chattering of birds’ whistles and chirps. Feathers fly. Sibilant sounds pierce the air. Abandoned nests whisper in silence.

I hear the whir of commercial jets overhead. Without looking at the blue expanse, I can distinguish the roaring, steady stream of noise. There are the fueled planes and then there are the ones motored simply by propellers, arriving and departing via our local airport. I hear two or three mowers from neighboring lawns. A car passes by the upper street, north of us. I am at the center of it all as life passes and continues despite my presence under the foil of the California pepper tree.

Against the south fence, bordering our citrus grower, the leaves from non-descript, softwood trees shake, drop and fall. The California pepper flutters its fringed leaves. Here and there, it lets a single pink berry or thin, bladed leaf go. As it is released from the tree, the verdant leaves twirl as they spiral to the earth’s surface on their journey. The berries, on the other hand, even though they are as light as tears, drop straight down onto the dirt.

The Queen palms by the pool reach up to the heavens. They are languishing with fatigue by the lounge chairs. The young fronds circle in a pinwheel pattern around the flexible, giant stalk. . Heavy with sword shaped leaves, their weight creates a bend downward. It’s a fireworks display exploding in green.

The Hawaiian plumeria we planted as a stick is now a seven wide by seven-foot high island tree. Its dense, shiny, sea green foliage hides the fact there is a kitchen window behind it. The clusters of bursting flower petals are painted in magenta and bright, sunshine yellow. Their inner throats are streaked in a pale white when you look up close. From the distance and cover of my California pepper tree, they look like ruby gemstones, imported from Siam, now, Thailand, which are darker and deeper than India’s precious stones.

A hummingbird flits from east to west, searching. It sticks its long pointy beak into orange trumpet shaped blossoms on a shrub we never planted and don’t have the heart to dispose of. It stoically resurrected itself just a few months after our landscaping was complete, sixteen years ago.

Purple hearts cascade over the raised stucco planter on the left of the back of the house. The half circle is under a window and attached to the outside of our den wall. Teeny, lilac blooms announce their arrival by peeking out from deep inside elongated and furry leaves. The purple secretia grow like creeping ivy but they are eggplant colored. The lighter tone of the flowers brightens the aubergine hue like glitter sprinkled on a maroon background. Profuse and seemingly limitless, it’s random and wild.

The twin planter to the right has a myriad of color. The four o’clocks I planted from seed range from hot pink to fuchsia to bright purple to sunny yellow, milk white, poppy red and coral. Hidden under their eighteen inch heights are petunias that peek out in violet and lily-white. A ten-inch glass sphere sits atop its black iron stand in the center of the half moon. The shiny aqua globe turns purple, cobalt blue and Japanese beetle green, according to how the prism of light hits it. It anchors and celebrates the rainbow jubilee of the flora it reigns over.

One side so monochrome, the other side, varied and brilliant. Both have a haphazard, unrestrained and spontaneous texture. Like different parts of you vividly portrayed in two living beds of possibilities and outcomes. Both are bold, strong and refuse to be defined by any rules.

There’s a row of Iceberg roses all along the front side of the guesthouse showing signs of brown wilt on the tips of their petals. This indicates the snow-white flowers need to be snipped away from the clutches of their thorny branches. I love using my super sharp, Cutco pruners. When I was fifteen and staying with a friend on her acre of gardens in East Hampton, I learned to cut off the flowered stem at the start of a five-leafed nodule. This allows fresh growth to take hold and to move in a different direction. I remember we sunbathed nude in private inside her glowing courtyard. That summer away, I was nurtured and looked at life with novel eyes too.

Maybe later I will lop off roses, but, for now, I take this time, to bask and appreciate the natural beauty everywhere, beneath the soft, netting of my California pepper tree.

The view is alive and well. I write with abandon and glory about what’s right here before me, for as Dorothy says, There is no place like home.

 

 

Y4 – Day 185 – A Simple Read

Over the summer, I seem to read even less than you would think a bookaphile would during the hot, muggy, no school atmosphere. Maybe, that is precisely why I read less.

Ever since I can remember, June through August means vacation, wake up late time. September through Thanksgiving you give it all you got and then you slide right into holiday mode. Every new year, it takes me till February to get moving and focused once again and that probably lasts till end of April, middle of May.

So, approximately half the year, I feel productive. Or at least that is the way it feels.

This summer, I tackled and read a few fine books. I am about ten pages away from finishing Wild Mind by Natalie Goldberg. It is even better than her famous Writing Down the Bones, her first published book, that projected her into national fame. I can’t wait to curl up tonight and finish it. I will return to all my flagged pages right after and practice all her prompts.

I am two thirds through the inspirational book, 100 Ways to Simplify your Life by Joyce Meyer. I found this gem while browsing the Christian section of B and N. I was looking for a gift for a religious mom/friend. I found a  humorous book written by two Christian women on being overworked raising kids. I knew she would relish commiserating. I never look in this section for myself. The spine or something caught my attention and I originally was going to give it away but as I started perusing through the pages, I fell in love. It is truly a simple book and I need simple. It may not be easy, but I can keep it simple. Lots of handy advice in this fine, simple read.

I started reading another, two, new additional women authors: Melissa Michaels and Heather Sellers. Melissa, the decorator, has a blog named “The Inspired Room” and the book I am currently in the middle of is titled, Love the Home you Have, Simple Ways to Embrace your style, get organized and delight in where you are. The word, simple, seems to be a theme this season for me. It isn’t just a practical book, it is personal and wise, as well. I loved it so much, I bought two more of her books. I tend to get hooked on a writer and then proceed to march through everything they have ever written and their autobiography – never mind nowadays, I can like their FB page and follow them, if I knew how to use my Twitter account.

Heather, on the other hand, is a writer’s friend and teacher. She gracefully pushes you to write and how. Her book Chapter by Chapter came out after Page by Page but the Chapter book arrived at my doorstep first, so of course I dived right in, right away. I am working through her many exercises and flagging almost every page. I will be traversing kind of backwards when I jump into Page by Page but it is all good stuff to fill my insatiable desire and quest for academic nonfiction.

Whenever my computer is slow or I have to wait for something to pop up, I read On Writing Well by William Zinger. This is a classic, a must read on every writer’s blog list of the top ten and quite entertaining. I keep it in my office, not by my bed like most books I’m reading and so far I haven’t even made it past the Introduction. That is okay. I notice time and again, if I pick it up during a slow computer transition, the computer gets jealous and suddenly decides to upload whatever it is, that much quicker. William’s guide to writing nonfiction is clear, warm and dare I say it – SIMPLE!

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