Y3 – Day 158 – Reading Books

Recently, I finished Ripper by Isabel Allende. This tale takes place in San Francisco and Berkeley.

I love her array of work, as you well know if you have ever read any of my reviews, but to have the setting where my children reside brings a note of specialness to the whole act of reading her descriptions.

This is a new genre for Allende. Her husband apparently is a mystery writer. They attempted to write a whodunit together and nearly divorced, so Isabel did what she nearly always does and hid away for a few months and produced this contemporary novel. She did refer and defer to her sleuth husband for expert advice here and there but no collaboration on the plot and so forth.

It was an entertaining read but not something I couldn’t put down. Generally, writing in the third person does not draw me in like first person. It is not one of her historical novels. I was ambivalent about some of her (albeit well developed) characters. The reveal was slow and steady as we learned more as the protagonists uncovered more clues.

Leading the reader to believe different conclusions is always risky and a bit contrived but as usual,  I loved every minute of Allende’s well turned phrases and profound messages inscribed inside her tale.

Meanwhile, I have picked up Saving Fish From Drowning by Amy Tan just to get a different lyrical feel on the fantasy/whodunit/extraordinary writer scene. I believe Amy Tan will become my new and fast friend at my bedside. Of course, like everyone else I read her first book, The Joy Luck Club, back in the early 90’s after the movie came out. And then I missed a lot during that time while having and raising little children so I am catching up on my old writing friends.

Written in 2005, Saving Fish, her sixth book out of ten, I have plenty of Amy Tan to peruse. It is basically about a recently murdered San Francisco antiques dealer/socialite who in spirit form travels with her twelve friends as they decide to continue with their plans to visit China and Burma, which she had organized.

Now, here is a book and topic I wholeheartedly decided I would not care to read yet I am engrossed in it and carry it around with me everywhere.

Meanwhile, I am reading a book I picked off the shelf in NYC that I am finally ready to own called Writing Down the Bones, Feeling the Writer Within (1986) by Natalie Goldberg. It is an excellent and short chaptered, concise and informative kind of read a writer needs at her side like Anne Lamott’s Bird by Bird. Writing Down is Natalie’s first book out of ten, so again, I have much to do plus there are a myriad of ideas to explore amongst her Zen induced instruction.

Also, beyond my daily morning meditation reads from several authors, early morning journaling and mantra mala practice, I am always reading a book on meditation/yoga/spirituality while reading my nonfiction and fiction to balance me out and I am in the middle of Stephen Levine’s, A Gradual Awakening (1979). I pulled this book off my own shelf waiting for the ripe time and I guess that is now because it makes twenty times more sense to me now than when I wasn’t attending a Tao meditation every Wednesday night. Amongst his essays he scatters  written scripts for guided Vipassana (loving kindness) meditations.

I touch base with all three areas of interest I delve in:

Guided meditation is invaluable to vary peaceful contemplation in silence.

Inspiration to write motivates the heart to hand movement.

Imagination is lit and satisfies as we are lost in another’s space and time as readers.

 

Y3 – Day 157 – New History

Everyday is an adventure. Every morning is a chance to start over and begin again.

We literally cannot change the past or live in it. Today is New History.

Whatever we do today is stamped into the future and becomes our story as we reflect back.

Our actions, words and thoughts today will one day become our memories.

We cannot make the old tapes go away but we can work on being the best sentient beings today.

Y3 – Day 156 – Working on Self

All this too shall pass.

More will be revealed.

Know its a job from the inside out.

I worked diligently on self during deep desperation by writing and crying and just laying around. When I had any energy at all- I tried to complete a task.

The real turnaround happens when we pick up the phone and ask for help, guidance and relief from self.

We can shrivel up or climb out of the hole. Little by little. It’s up to us.

Succumbing again to feeling blue or worse and allowing the whole process to repeat is part of the deal. Each time, we feel just a bit more like ourselves, with alterations, changes or adjustments to our personality or character. Of course that takes tweaking. Of course it is going to hurt. That is what molting feels like. We grow new skin and at first it is very thin and raw.

Suffering only occurs when we resist the flow.

 

Y3 – Day 155 – Honesty

HONESTY

“Our lives improve only when we take chances ~
and the first and most difficult risk we can take is to be honest with ourselves.”
Walter Anderson

I love this quote. Lately, I have been raw honest with self. It has been a revelation. Basically, anytime I have an issue with anyone or anything, I look in the mirror. That is where the solution lies. My attitude is everything. My perspective is all. The person reflected in the looking glass is responsible for her own responses, behaviors and expressions.

If I deem myself worthy enough to take credit for the good that comes my way, the satisfactory actions that I display or the gifts I bestow – then why not the judgment,  complaints and criticism?

I think I am growing up. Hmmmm. Imagine that.

 

Y3 – Day 154 – Beach Day

DSC09491 DSC09492What is unique to the OC is you can drive into LA and visit Hollywood, Universal Studios  and other tourist attractions or you can stay in the area and enjoy family friendly parks like the original Disneyland or the very first theme park, Knott’s Berry Farm.

E went up to the mountains and lake while V, I and Cindi went to Laguna Beach. Perhaps the most scenic coast this side of the Pacific. We dined outside on the patio at the infamous “Las Brisas” and explored the tide pools.

Cindi absolutely LOVES the beach and seems to be a natural beachcomber.

Y3 – Day 153 – Good 4Me

After working out, eating clean, getting everything done on my list plus some and then being taken through a meditation/exercise on forgiveness, I feel blissful.

IMG_4070I am in transition, I am on my way up another level of vibration and I am grateful.

I can just hear Imagine Dragons sing on their song, Radioactive – “Welcome to the New World” and they are singing it to me.

You know – you can take anything and find the gift in it. I can take this song and find my own new meaning in it if I want to.

Make it YOUR day!

Now I understand Carpe Diem. For reals.

 

Y3 – Day 152 – Bower’s in the Spring 2015

IMG_4072Today, I went to Bowers Museum with my yoga mentor/teacher/trainer/friend, D.

As young school children silently and obediently followed their teacher into the entrance, D remembered how she came as a young student herself, back in elementary school.

There are two new exhibits of note.

One display is the works of three different photographers. Each has a different perspective of the Western landscape from almost a century ago.

Ironically, no pictures were allowed to be taken of the photos. But of course it is a practical matter because the paper and images must be preserved.

I did get a shot of the huge camera that was used back in the day.

D commented that now we use our tiny compact computer phones as cameras. True and that mini computer of mine took this picture. When you truly think about it, it blows your mind how far we have come technologically speaking. If only that were also true of our human/ecological/global relations.

 

Y3 – Day 151 – Sunflower

Using the Biodynamic Gardening Lunar calendar, I planted heirloom sunflowers approximately three or four months ago. I cannot recall but I know I sowed the seeds willy nilly thinking, “yea, let’s see how great or not so great this turns out.”

As it is revealing, the calendar has been working rather well for me. Plants that I am notorious for killing are living. Everything I plant according to the calendar is not only surviving, but thriving beyond my expectations. And, obviously I even forgot I had sown sunflower seeds. I watched the stems grow long and wasn’t sure what was going to burst on the scene. This morning I felt great surprise when I encountered the blooms open. Then and only then did I even remember I haphazardly and with not much fanfare sowed these fabulous sun lovers. I love forgetting where I have hidden bulbs, seeds and plants and then –  voila! They appear!

Basically, I amaze myself as I marvel at the earth’s handiwork, with no encouragement from me, and I have no angst or disappointment when something doesn’t deliver because I cannot remember what I am doing anymore.

In this scenario, I am living the Tao.IMG_4071