Y4 – Day 173 – Writing Questions

How do I write? – One page at a time and in complete silence.

When do I write? – One day at a time.

Where do I write? – Anywhere I’m comfortable or if inspired, I just need a scrap of paper and writing tool or recorder. I also find myself writing in my bed, at a desk in my office, the dining table, on a lounge chair and sometimes in the car.

Why do I write? – Because I have a unexplainable need to express myself in words and know myself. I write to explore, document, share, record events and for memories’ sake.

What do I write? – Mystery, story, memoir, reviews, musings, blog, articles, poetry, personal essay, fiction, non-fiction, journaling, free write, prompts, letters, emails, thank you’s, gratitudes, yoga lesson plans, dialog, character sketches, descriptive, funny, sad, tragic and dramatic. And so it is.

Who do I write for? – Initially me, but in rewrites, revisions and editing, probably looking to share the human experience.

Pursue some path, however narrow and crooked, in which you can walk with love and reverence. – Henry David Thoreau

Bottom Line: I don’t know if I am happy and so I write or if writing makes me happy. Either way, I am happy, I am writing and I am happy writing.

Y4 – Day 169 – Dream/Awake Time

You know that space between knowing you’re awake and asking for more time to sleep? Maybe you would like to finish the dream you were just having where you were just about to be handed a trophy for being the best human being/career person/lifeguard, whatever…or you finally realized your purpose in life was to…

Sometimes I let slumber take me back. Then I can connect the dots and see the answers clearly. Sometimes I just get up, there is nothing more frustrating than tossing and turning when you have a deadline or tasks to perform. Usually, these are exactly the restless early mornings and now behold, you have no energy. That ever happen to you?

Pretty regularly , I rise and make coffee, go back to bed and pull out my trusty pen and journal and write for at least three pages of uninterrupted nonsense to get it out of my head and onto the page.

Occasionally, words of wisdom, solutions and even outside the box ideas pop up. Even inventive new sentences can appear and when I re-read them another time looking for juicy material, I wonder who wrote that?

Here and there, I drone on and on in my early morning writing about how I can’t remember the dream where I fixed the world with this fabulous notion or… about how awful I feel for over indulging late at night mindlessly and my tummy hurts.

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Y4 – Day 168 – Mountain Time with Cindi

I walked through the balcony door threshold and then I blankly looked straight ahead and wondered why I was there. I am in my pjs. I am wearing thick, ivory bed socks. My pajama top looks like a black dress with a scoop neck and the fabric is divinely soft. Anyway, I turn back and look at Cindi and then decide to go back into the treehouse and close the screen door behind me.

Oh well, I ‘ll remember when it’s important enough and it pops back into my head and I will just fetch whatever it was then. 

Cindi looks at me like she’s asking, “Are you coming or going, lady?” also “Will there be treats involved?” and with an urgent look of hope, “Is that why you walked back in? To get me a treat?”

She stares at me as I sit back down on the loveseat and plops her chin down on her Ducks blanket, resigned to my indecisiveness.

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Y4 – Day 167 – Lord of the Flies

William Golding wrote the Lord of the Flies, a fascinating depiction of how one bad apple can spoil the bunch. I also like his take on everything because he doesn’t spare you his view which is always a little against the grain or ahead of its time. Not many people know his other works that also include extraordinary concepts and thoughtful stories. His theme seems to be “What if…?” and then he runs with it. I found this on the internet and admire him even more. He is a smart man and must have had an excellent marriage.

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Y4 – Day 165 – Top Priorities

So I started to write out my top priorities at this stage of my life.

They are not necessarily in order – they are all vital.

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5. I adore, support and cherish my husband and children.

What are your top 5, at this time?

Vitality shows not only in the ability to persist,
 but in the ability to start over.         -F. Scott Fitzgerald

Y4 – Day 163 – Your Calling

I have blogged once a year on this subject except for 2014. These are basic questions that need revisions, tweaks and practice.

I truly believe that everything that we do and everyone that we meet is put in our path for a purpose. – Marla Gibbs

What inspires you? What is your passion? What is the purpose of your life?

If you ask, you will receive astounding answers. You are much more than you have ever realized. You are much more divine than you have ever dreamed. If you ask these questions, you will search for the answers.

In meditation, writing in a journal, when chatting with a friend, when we are listening, we will have the answers revealed. The thoughts will seem like yours but they are downloaded from the infinite mind or universal source.

When you ask freely and openly, without fear or anticipation, your answer will appear.

Usually, answers gather around what you love to do, give you inward satisfaction and/or feed your soul. It is when you feel lighter, happier and closer to your source. It’s when you lose all sense of time and space. It’s when you feel like a part of everything in nature. It’s when you feel fulfilled when you are generous with others, either with time, touch or thought. It’s when you are used like an instrument or channel to be useful to others. It’s when you are of service to yourself or others, walking through a positive change or action.

What gives you delight? What nourishes your mind, body and soul? What sparks your energy?

I don’t believe people are looking for the meaning of life as much as they are looking for the experience of being alive. – Joseph Campbell

Y4 – Day 162 – Cowboy Code

 

One of the noteworthy ideas I gleaned from the Property Brothers Montana Show was the Cowboy Code. Not only did it make sense on the ranches and wild west shanty towns, it still holds weight today. Confucius, Lao Tsu, Buddha, Jesus, Ghandi, Lincoln, plug in the name, could have written them.

  1. Live each day with courage.
  2. Take pride in your work.
  3. Always finish what you start.
  4. Do what has to be done.
  5. Be tough, but fair.
  6. When you make a promise, keep it.
  7. Ride for the brand.
  8. Talk less and say more.
  9. Remember that some things aren’t for sale.
  10. Know where to draw the line.

Ok. Well #7 I am not sure how to interpret but everything else sounds like great tenets.

Here is where I need help: Numbers 3, 4 and 8. I am working on 10 and the rest are no brainers for me.

Which of these speaks to you as a no-brainer and you live it?

Which rule do you need to work on?

Which code of conduct is making you feel queasy, and could use some practice in?

 

Y4 – Day 159 – Practice, Practice, Practice

Whenever you first learn something, you need to practice it. You continue to repeat, reform and improve even when you are a maestro at it.

I read this the other day in the “Lion’s Roar” from an article by Anne Cushman:              “The practices we know are most vital to our wellbeing are the very things that are usually pushed aside by daily tasks that feel more urgent.”

Well, isn’t that the truth? How many times have I decided this is the day I tackle the laundry instead of exercising? And, how often have I chosen to house clean in order to avoid finishing a project I started? Or, why must I run errands, pick up the phone, or engage in social media when I really could be gardening, writing, reading, stretching, meditating or walking? What else have I put on the back burner, “until a better space/time/mood” hits me?

I contemplated and I believe I am better at this. Here and there though I could use a reminder.

There is nothing wrong with washing dishes. It is a necessary task. I do make it a meditative experience, not a chore.

I have been intentionally proceeding through my day, mindfully.

But do I still distract myself? Absolutely. It is the irony of someone with imagination. While the creative juices flow, they also scatter, experiment and find new roads. Harnessing the wild, the elusive and the ethereal thought is sometimes beyond my capability.

Daily practice of any kind, of anything or any endeavor, takes discipline and focus. I recently heard on my Writing Challenges podcasts from David Morely of the University of Warwick, England, that inspiration is simply getting to the desk, pen and paper.

So, here I am. I have the discipline, now I just need the focus!!!

Y4 – Day 158 – 6/16/16

Three sixes I see. Kinda creepy if you have ever seen Damian in the movie, “The Omen.”

But it is also a great day for lots of graduates. I am sure this weekend will be noisy and raucous as the parties start to get into full tilt.

So, here is an affirmation for the graduates, the parents as they re-purpose their graduates’ rooms and everyone with a dream in their heart.

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