Resentment, remorse and regret.
After grieving, after saying something I wish I hadn’t even thought of, after gossiping or hurting someone’s feelings, I tend to get into the 3 R’s.
I resent myself or apply the anger towards another.
I am ashamed.
I wish I could take it back.
I need to remind myself, I am only human and have a multitude of flaws. Can I still accept and love myself unconditionally like I would another? Can I forgive myself for my transgressions? Can I move beyond the self-flagellation?
I also realize, if I cannot let myself be human and have self compassion then what can I possibly expect from others? Mutilation and being nailed to a cross? And how am I supposed to live amongst other imperfect beings if I cannot accept my own mistakes?
When I observe my behavior and witness myself in a less than glowing light, I judge harshly. This is a good time to ask for guidance and direction. This is a great moment for humility and retrospection. This is a perfect opportunity for divine intervention.