As a rule and in order to follow my anti-anxiety class instructions, I don’t listen to the news. Lately though, I have felt the urgency to tune in anyway. What was I thinking? I feel I am spiritually fit, mentally strong and emotionally balanced and then I subject and expose myself to a barrage of negative information. The onslaught of chaos is just like I left it, in tatters. Why did I believe otherwise?
Needless to say, the news brought on opinions and frustrations I am documenting and pouring out into personal journals so I don’t bore or enrage you. The deluge of feelings, contradictions and questions I have, had me coming to 3 conclusions. 1) I did not cause this mess. 2) I ain’t going to ever fix it and 3) I can only control my own thinking, words, responses and actions. There are a lot of options: I can change my mind, I can choose differently, I can close my eyes, I can get involved, I can become jaded, I can get incensed, etc.
Right now, I am very disappointed in the human race. And when has that not been the case?
To re-group, I need to keep the focus on my behavior. I intend and insist on remaining and being all about the love. I know love is the only answer. I know there is a spiritual solution to every problem. My only course of action today is to profess, be and express love. I need to let it begin with me. I am in a suspended state as I rise above my judgments, criticisms and stories. Maybe tomorrow there will be peace. Maybe not. Meantime, I must appreciate my good fortune and fill MY heart with forgiveness and compassion.