Y2 – Day 141 – The Blues

Most of the shadows of this life are caused by standing in one’s own sunshine.

 Ralph Waldo Emerson 

Just to let you know, I am human and have bouts of the blahs or blues like everyone else.  Even though I am past my womanly reproductive prime, I still cycle.  I still have crazy days when I don’t even want to live with myself, never mind be pleasant to you.

I recently had one of these momentous, dramatic moments and again I insist  – having a bevy of considerate, compassionate and generous friends makes all the difference.  So does opening your mouth and letting them know you are not ok.

For whatever reason, and sometimes it IS unknown, we all dip, coast or plunge some days.  Not letting it become a massive isolationist issue takes being able to trust someone enough to let him or her know you are feeling a tad vulnerable.  Once I am willing to let you in, we can be intimate partners in recruiting best possible scenarios within my head and replacing self-indulgent, self-pitying and victim based depression with happier, productive thoughts.

The opposite of trust is doubt.  And when you are in the midst of feeling low and lonely, you doubt you will ever recuperate.  That’s when faithful, sympathetic friends come in handy.

When we are fiercely independent or private, it takes courage to rely, depend or believe in another person’s ability to help us out of this one.

I have learned to empower myself by having confidence in others.  I can take a break from running the world and let someone else take the reins for a while.  This does not have to be literal.  It is a matter of allowing yourself the optimism that perhaps you don’t have all the answers, cannot comprehend everything or have no clue about anything.  Imagine that.

I learn every time I am sad or perplexed with unknown, unwarranted discouragement that reliable, steadfast and true friends that I can be frank, candid and raw with surround me.  Thank you.  May I be even half as helpful to you, when you are blue.

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