Capuchina

Our precious 17 year old gorgeous cat Capu has passed into the great big pet heaven in the sky. I imagine our previous felines are waiting for her over the rainbow,

Her kidneys were failing and she was walking wobbly due to loss of muscle. Plus, she wasn’t eating and hiding in the closet which along with the vet visit confirmed she was declining fast and probably in pain. Cats may not vocalize physical distress and instead as middle predator will hide and seek a place away from danger and want to be alone.

We had a traveling hospice vet come to our house and our family had the opportunity to say goodbye and see her off. It was an absolutely horrible choice to make but supposedly the most compassionate.

Although everyone says it’s the kindest way to go It still doesn’t feel good or even right. I imagine with the grief and sadness we will have lovely memories as well as guilt (we could have done more). Making this sort of final decision for a suffering animal is complicated and incomprehensible.

RIP Capuchina 2006-2023

update on cindi and love

She’s feeling better!!!

Your spirit team wants you to know you are love and you are loved and supported!

Stay present in your presence of all that you are and YOU are divine!

Writing is a great tool to help you heal especially combined with meditation.

You are perfect as you are and yet improving on and growing into your authentic soul self is a noble and wonderful inner journey worth exploring.

The Next Few Days

What if in the next few days you realized who you really are and what your unique gifts were?

What if we focused on the excitement of living and not the terror?

What if you got out of panic mode, hateful speech, angry thoughts and instead, changed your direction and attention? This would cause the rising from low frequency to a higher emotion.

What if we starved our scary and instead loved and fed the good?

If we all raised our vibration, or enough of us did, we would create a loving, joyful, peaceful, compassionate, wonderful new earth.

Adapted from Pam Gregory’s u tube conversation with Nancy Rebecca about how to enlighten and help ourselves during this time in our lives.

Cindi as an elder

We have had Cindi now for almost 10 years. If you would like to see her beginnings and journey with us please write Cindi by the search button.

I call Cindi my daughter dog since we bonded immediately. Plus, back in January 17 of 2014, we were empty nesters and as you all know who have canine fur babies, they are like your children frozen in time in the infant to toddler stage.

Cindi has fallen ill and we still don’t know at this time what she has but her symptoms have all been taken care of with medicine for now except for her hacking/dry coughing.

We are wrought with worry for our baby girl. Please send up prayers or healing vibes to the universe. Much obliged.

quality vs. quantity

“May your years be counted not by your age but by how you spend your days”.

– Catherine Pulsifer (self-help book author)

May my hours not be counted by days but by how I spend these moments.

Yes, ideally, quality and quantity.

Always choose quality over quantity.

What is quality in a person? It is substance, excellence and integrity. So, a quality life are days filled with purpose, well-spent and aligned with your values.

What is quantity in a person? It is an amount, a dosage and a measurement. Therefore, a long life does not equate with its inherent value as a comparison.

I know my life as a whole has been eventful yet it is the days of sobriety that have matured and honed me. Alas, as I see it, the time I have invested in it is as important as the quality of my recovery.

Living your best Life

“If you are always trying to be normal, you will never know how amazing you can be”. – Maya Angelou

Oh Maya! Always on point and a reminder for my spiritual path on earth.

The ideal Authentic path for me would be to live with integrity, intuition, intelligence, intention, inspiration, involvement and with an Itinerary. I fail time and again to hit and check off all these boxes, but this is the dream. This is what would make me amazing.

To live with integrity is to do the right thing even when no one is watching.

To live with intuition is to listen to my gut and my first impulse for kindness instead of over analyzing with my logic or inner censors.

To live with intelligence is to check in with the present moment and not allow future tripping or distortion of reality by believing propaganda or lies.

To live with intention is to know right from wrong and follow the path of goodness.

To live with inspiration is to imagine a world of love, trust and respect for all sentient beings and Mother Earth.

To live with involvement is to participate and add to community, connecting with others, being of service and helping not hurting the collective.

To live with an itinerary is to actually have a plan and a timetable.

“Try to be a rainbow in someone’s cloud” – Maya Angelou

I can at least endeavor to make someone’s day. That is amazing too.

A Checklist for Evaluating our Maturity

A Checklist for Evaluating our Maturity from millions of al-anon members:

The difficulties of coping with another are much more effectively met when we ourselves reflect attitudes of mature adults.

A mature adult is one who:

1) Does not automatically resent criticism, realizing it may contain a suggestion for self-improvement.

2) Knows self pity is futile and childish– a way of placing the blame for disappointments on others.

3) Does not readily experience a loss of temper or “fly off the handle” abouut trifles.

4) Keeps calm in emergencies and deals with them in a logical, reasonable fashion.

5) Accepts responsibility without blaming others when things go wrong.

6) Accepts reasonable delays without impatience, realizing that some adjustment for the convenience of others is necessary.

7) Is a good loser, accepting defeat and disappointment without complaint or ill temper.

8) Does not worry unduly about things that can’t be changed.

9) Doesn’t boast or “show off” when praised or complimented, accepts it with grace, appreciation and without false modesty.

10) Applauds others’ achievements with sincere goodwill.

11) Rejoices in the good fortune and success of others, having outgrown petty jealousy and envy.

12) Listens courteously to the opinions of others even when they hold opposing views; does not enter into hostile argument.

13) Doesn’t find fault with “every little thing” or criticize people who do things differently.

14) Makes reasonable plans and tries to carry them out in an orderly fashion; does not do things on the spur of the moment without due consideration.

15) Shows spiritual maturity by–

• accepting the existence of a Higher Power and recognizing the importance of this power in life.

• realizing each person is a part of mankind as a whole and has much to give: that each of us has an obligation to share with others the gifts that have been bestowed upon us.

• obeying the spirit of the Golden Rule: “Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.” “

Happy Halloween 2023

“Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there…dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before” – Edgar Allan Poe

We are currently watching a series on Netflix that is super mysterious, gory and sci fi/time travel themed called Bodies and its super, uber psych tv viewing for me. Perfect for Halloween!!

Clean, Clear and Crisp

Clearing mountain fog covered the valley below, a fluffy blanket thrown carelessly into the air, softly landing into a misty sea of sky and horizontal waves.

From the ridges of the hills, the haze shifted, sinking and sheltering the lowlands with wisps of vapor, criss-crossing hues of greys and off- whites.

Eventually, sunrise crept over the pinnacles and the sun’s fate today was to light up the upper atmosphere in celestial blue, a blank canvas to behold.

In the depths of the creviced, steep shears of granite and conifers where compacted sediment, was layered and settled, both scrub and succulent shared life with the deer, the bear, the critters, the fowl and the dreaded, California black rattlesnake.

Lucky for me, the oak leaves and pine needles now shimmered with their dew and the magic of the day was set in motion with gratitude. I watched to admire, felt festive and joyous and acknowledged this bright new day as sacred.

-CBS